Okay, some of you may know of my previous attempt to compose a fictional novel. Well, I got to about 40 something pages. But after not touching any of it and letting it rot in my hard-drive, I deleted it. It wasn’t that good anyway, and I figured out the reason. Experience, or lack thereof. Without my own experiences, how can I possibly believe that I can create complex, relate-able characters with many dimensions?

I have another story idea. I’ve had it for years. After briefly explaining it to my “editor” (some of you may not know her), she thought it was a really good idea (though I’ve made a lot of mental changes to it.). I think it’s a promising idea, also. The characters are complex; have raw emotions and ideas…

I’m going to put off any writing for a long time. Or at least until I have any way of wording my thoughts and ideas like a seasoned professional author. Plus, I need the experience. I probably won’t write anything until I’m married with kids (because that’s when I assume I’ll have time…maternity leave). That’s when I’ll truly know what it means to love, when I have my own experiences. Maybe if I’m positively sure I won’t have writer’s block occurring every other hour, I’ll start writing. Or when I own my own laptop/notebook. I hate writing on my PC…people walk by, and I can just feel them reading over my shoulder. I have to tab the window like I’m doing something wrong…It sucks.

So just little thoughts.

I’m not far enough in my brainstorming (of little details) to complete an outline (though it’d make my life so much easier in the future). For now, I’ll just have to jot down my epiphanies in my handy-dandy notebook.

and some hours till Breaking Dawn!

Ugh, I realized that I can’t just doze off in class. Today I had a test (on a Monday…psh, after not studying for 3 days) and I got 10/17…that sucks! Well, I did have an upset stomach, and it was a Monday.

And I have other things to think of also. This weekend, to take my mind off of stuff, I’m planning on using my two free Knotts tickets (which I’m still spazzing over how I won them) on Sunday (I was going to plan Friday, but my sister’s working Fri. and Sat.) I’m still not sure if she’s taking her boyfriend or not. If she is, then you guys should come too! (Celerydip…with her brother’s tickets)

Also re-practicing piano. Geez, I haven’t touched my piano keys in a long time. And I forgot all the songs I played. So now I suck…

Rekindling with my music collection. Wait, correction…My English-speaking music. Hehe. Since my mp3 player is filled with asian music, I’ve been on the computer more, just to listen to my other collection. To find things to do, I just play solitaire while listening.